Friday, May 6, 2011

color relations

This is one of my favorite subjects. This was inspired by my friend Chelsey like five years ago (but actually, 2005, 6 years ago, I was so little, nbd) but it was something that I had done without thinking for a while. Since then I've been doing it even more. What is "it"? Matching people and colors, obviously!

Now I can only envy people who are real synesthetes (and wonder about how they function, sensory overload much?), but I think that this is really cool anyway and I feel pretty bad for colorblind people because I can't imagine making sense of life without color coordination. Before I talk about people and colors, can I just say that color coordination is really awesome? I've talked with a few people about assigning subjects in school to certain colors, and obviously this is becoming more prevalent thanks to technology - e.g. look at Google calendar, gmail, etc. and you can see how easy it is to colorganize your life (yes I just made that word up, yes I think it's awesome, no I don't think I'll be saying it aloud any time soon). For example, everything InterVarsity in my life is green, and I think this is for several reasons. First, I just think of green. Second, the green Pancake House t-shirts are the pinnacle of cool. Third, our website used to be black and green. Fourth, it can be both bright and serious and I just think it's perfect for IV. This has gotten to the point that other people's calendars confuse me and just look wrong. So don't show me your calendar unless you plan on its sensibilities being critiqued by me.

Ok, to continue on this tangent since I think it's interesting and this is my blog after all, let's go back to subjects in school and I'll tell you the right colors in case you're looking to colorganize your life some more. Now, I'm one of those crazy twamps who has had my classes scheduled out since June 2009 (the month of my high school graduation) and obviously this requires some color to make sense out of it. So I've since matched some of my notebooks to the colors in my excel course plan, but I was more into the matching notebooks in high school. Anyway, here are the colors and their explanations:

  • Economics = purple. Now it used to be a red but since then it's become purple in my mind due to conditioning because I wanted to see more purple in my spreadsheet, and also because math was already red (though a darker one). But I think it fits. I've always considered it as a combination of math and English, and though it's more of math and psychology now that I think of it, this was where the color came from (wherein English is obviously a blue). So it's a combination of red and blue, but it's also fitting, since it's a fairly intuitive science and purple is ALL about intuition and mystery and cognition. But it's also dismal, and purple is kind of depressing when it's in a nice gray shade! So it's basically perfect.
  • Math = red. Now this is not a bright red unless it's algebra. It's a darker thing, but it's all about hard rules and following logical paths which is just so red. It's like a STOP sign. But it's also like a fire extinguisher. As it gets more nebulous it gets more gray in my mind.
  • English = blue. This is beyond obvious. This is like...incontrovertible fact. I mean. I'm trying to explain it. It's not a turquoise in any way, it's a pretty pure blue; it's about thoughts and words, and cognition is just a blue concept (also pretty gray when it's about intelligence). If this doesn't make sense we can debate it further, but otherwise just trust me, English is blue.
  • Psychology = orange. This is another product of my spreadsheet beautification, but it fits the science aspect of it really well. Science you might think would be green, but only environmental science is green, silly! Chemistry is surely a yellow and so psychology makes sense as an orange to me. It has experimental aspects and it's, to me, all about explaining personalities, and some of the most fun personalities are orange, so it's just perfect.
  • Government = green. Like a puke green. This is not because I hate government, but seriously, it fits.
  • Physics = a kind of purple.
  • Sociology = a yellowy-brown.
  • Spanish = red (brighter than math).
  • Russian = gray.
  • French = a custardy yellow.
  • Business = highlighter yellow.
  • Biology = a kind of brick red.
  • etc., etc.
Obviously each individual course has its own shade, but these are the families of colors that I personally associate with these departments. There are several I have omitted for the sake of brevity (lolz at me being succinct) but I do have associations for most subjects by now. But I'm not going to make something up if it's not there. For example, religious studies has a very distinct feel which I want to call a kind of blue or green, but not bright, but I don't have the right picture in my mind so I'm not going to go there. But it's not a seafoam so stop picturing that.

ANYWAY, certain personality types relate to certain colors. They are fairly self-explanatory. They are so useful for making sense of people (it's like that moment you find out someone is the same major as you, and they suddenly seem so much more rational to you. Or maybe that's just an econ major thing). Some people don't have colors and I can't just immediately know someone's color (even if I've known them a long time). Sometimes they change. They're just useful for a time. If this makes no sense to you, then you keep being an aloof auburn or a lofty lapis lazuli for all I care (alliteration for the lolz). But think about it, and perhaps you will start seeing it too.

A quick guide:
  • Red is all about robustness and personality and it can be really deep or really silly depending on shade.
  • Yellow is super into other people: friendly, helping, listening, being supportive, observing (see it's not all about being talkative or an extrovert).
  • Blue is kind of the opposite: it's deep but it has more personal boundaries and likes to stay in its own head. Not necessarily an introvert, but a thinker.
And there are all kinds of combinations and everyone is their own unique shade (and sometimes they're kind of like two colors swirled together which don't necessarily mix; the colors remain distinct and preserve their own personalities). Everything mixes in weird ways. But it is so helpful to figure out someone else's color. It's kind of like learning their secret name (like in Bartimaeus). You have power over them!! But not really anything to be frightened of, it's just the power of empathy.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

being worked on

The things in my life that are being worked on....are uncountable. Or are they denumerable? All I know is that they are infinite. They are probably denumerable then. If I were God I could probably write a bijection between the things in my life and the set of natural numbers. That would be a pretty sick nasty looking equation though.

So I'm not going to try to number them, is what I'm saying. Let's just go for bullet points!

  • I'm working on my attitude toward the summer and the interim of patience which is required of me but right now I just want to know what I'm doing and be able to tell everyone about how great my plans are and how awesome I am.
  • I'm afraid that if I do get this legit job then I'll just be like, look guys, I was so patient, I just trusted in God's plan and it all worked out. Which is good because it gives the credit to God, which is where any and all credit lies. But it is bad because I have not been so good at being patient. As much as I try.
  • My being patient is actually a conundrum of sorts. I am aware that I need to be patient and I am making efforts toward being at peace. But I am also aware that I would like to be impatient and I would like to have fast answers. So there is a me vs. I situation, I think.
  • And so far we've hit two of my subjects this year! (Social psych and obviously foundations of math....) I've really been enjoying seeing how math applies to my life in so many random ways. It's really cool. Who knows where this minor/major in math will go.
  • Trusting other people with my thoughts....this is a huge work in progress though, check back in a few years and we'll talk about the process.
  • Valuing other people for their uniqueness. Like, ok, I know everyone offers different things and we were all created for different reasons and positions in life and whatnot. But I obviously think that I was made the best. Why wouldn't I think that - my brain is the one doing the evaluating here! But no. Everyone is awesome and I love everyone (I sound like Kelliann now ;)); but seriously that is some cool symmetry. But actually I'm really learning to value other people and it's so hard to express all of my love for their differences sometimes.
  • You could say that I'm developing a conviction that a basic holiness permeates things and people. This is not to say that there are animal spirits (except for in macroeconomics) but this is about goodness. It's pretty cool. Check out the Message version of Galatians 5.
  • I have been so good about eating fruits this week. Almost as good as I have been about eating ice cream. So many flex points! But such a strange diet.
  • I am so so so excited for the identity track at Rockbridge.
  • Pancake House was super awesome and I really got a chance to appreciate so many people in my life (and I guess those not really in my life too). Thanks, God!
  • I came to the conclusion that if half the world watched Never Say Never (comes out on DVD May 13, aka my half-birthday), then half the world's problems would disappear. I am kind of not kidding. It is really inspirational and makes me want to do good and love everyone. And also he's Canadian, so he's a pacifist. If everyone watched a movie about a Canadian we would also have fewer problems. I'm just saying. Probably even listening to the Kennis song would do the trick.
  • I for serious need a better attitude about studying and learning. I am losing so much motivation. Good thing I have all summer to yearn for classes again!
  • I just wanted a 13th bullet point. But I should probably work on getting my obsession with numbers under control.

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

I am not dead.

But I am also not a good blogger. It's okay though because I don't have followers. Um. I think that's it. OH and also it's wednesday which means a) it's a new week according to my new way of thinking! and b) I should read today's xkcd and c) I have summer dinner and small group and escort yessssss. It is such a good thing that I don't have homework ever.

Friday, January 21, 2011

Best Death Cab for Cutie songs

In the interest of being a hipster, I decided this was necessary.

  1. Marching Bands of Manhattan (Plans). I've been in love with this song since like 2006 (it came out in 2005 nbd). Its message changed over time to me but the beautiful repetition only got more intense. Words cannot express my love of it.
  2. Title and Registration (Transatlanticism). I don't know when I discovered this but it was a revelation to me and again it got better with time. I don't know anything about music if you couldn't guess this already but it's like gahhhhhhhhmazing.
  3. Brothers on a Hotel Bed (Plans). I just recently discovered how much I love this song. It's like one of the songs that was always playing in the background and I always found it pleasant but I never really listened to it. There's so much about growing up/old and hopes and dreams and it just applies to so many kinds of change. Love.
  4. Grapevine Fires (Narrow Stairs). Ok, I was one of those people slightly disappointed in this album but not entirely imbued with hate toward it. Basically the first song I took away from it was this one, and recently the whole thing's been growing on me but this is still a standout. It's haunting and beautiful and about something that actually happened, so kind of a departure from all of the failed relationship songs.
  5. I Will Follow You into the Dark (Plans). Well obviously I am in love with this song. But it's one of those loves where I'm comfortable with it and not seriously engaged by it anymore, so while it's still stellar, it doesn't affect me the same as it used to because I've loved it for so long. Whereas some of the other songs grow like crazy, this one has stayed solid for me. Maybe that's because I've become more interested in the poppy ones, like number 6!
  6. No Sunlight (Narrow Stairs). I can't get enough of this song. It's super cute. Like I said I've been developing a major crush on this album.
  7. The New Year (Transatlanticism). I feel the need to hear this every New Year's day. And also every time I want to just jump into an awesome song. Bladjfkangiag awesomeness.
  8. Someday You Will be Loved (Plans). I have mixed feelings toward this song...both awesomeness and sadness I suppose, but anyway, I really like it and it makes me feel like Ben Gibbard's a jerk, which I don't think he really is but I like letting myself think it. At least he cares enough to sing this song?
  9. The Sound of Settling (Plans). Not going to lie, numbering gets more difficult here, so I'm going to stop trying to justify how I quantify my love of the rest of these songs. But this one's a classic, and it's so lovely and carefree while about such a seemingly awful thing. Maybe I like it more than a number 9 spot, but it is one of those that's easy to pass by because it's so classic.
  10. A Lack of Color (Transatlanticism). I really just love the lyrics of this song but I mean the instrumentals aren't bad either. It's grown on me.
OTHER AWESOME ONES:
  • Tiny Vessels + Transatlanticism (you shouldn't listen to these apart from one another)
  • What Sarah Said
  • Different Names for the Same Thing
  • Death of an Interior Decorator
  • I Will Possess Your Heart
  • Crooked Teeth
  • Your New Twin Sized Bed
  • I Was a Kaleidescope
  • Pictures in an Exhibition
  • Army Corps of Architects

In the interest of full disclosure, I believe "best" comes about in your mind as a function of both which album you listened to first and which album you listen to most (which is not independent, since it's based on your previously established "likes"). I heard Plans first so it's become my favorite for sentimental reasons and because I've heard it so many times since those sentimental times. And also this doesn't include the first two albums because I lost them when I transferred my music to my laptop, but they're a distinctly different sound and like I said my first exposure was Plans so it became my baseline of Death Cab's sound. Nbd.

So excited for Codes and Keys!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Things I don't understand

  • tumblrs all about fashion. how many jean shorts, ripped leggings and pictures of people in them smoking can there be? and how is that fashion? and how is that relevant to life?
  • how to write those brackets in math. like I understand how, I'm just no good at them.

Friday, January 14, 2011

...except it totally wasn't the end

Things that aren't awesome but should be:

  • Popular blogs. People start writing things in all the same way and it makes me feel like I'm suffocating. There's just a jbalinbiajfaness about it when people think they have actual readers. Good thing that's not me.
  • The Titanic. This goes both ways. The cruise kind of sucked halfway through. And the movie was way too long. Now it has a certain allure and I have seen it a few times, but I still have to say that it's not awesome. Just depressing. Not in the love lost sense, but in the why did she waste her life pining away for him sense. EVERY NIGHT IN MY DREAMS? That would be creepy.
  • Baby animals. They're cute in picture form. But in real life they take a lot of care, and then they grow up and that're not that cute and you still have to clean up after them.
  • Leaves. They should be totally fun to play in, but not if you're afraid of caterpillars and worms and fungus. Like, if you get a big enough pile it should be awesome, but for it to get that big either you have to do a lot of work (and then a lot of cleanup work afterwards) or let it grow on its own and also grow questionable smells. Just saying. Not that awesome.
  • Winter break being longer in college than in high school. Yay, high school graduates say, a longer break from school! No. Not if you are a twamp. School cannot resume fast enough. Break is approximately three weeks too long. Not awesome.
  • Amusement parks. THEY'RE SUPPOSED TO AMUSE YOU. And then you spend half the time in line, and it's too hot or it's too cold and everything's overpriced and no one wants to do the same things. No thank you.
  • Dinosaurs. Don't get me wrong, I think dinosaurs as an idea are really baller, they like terrorize the earth and they're all scary and green and mythic and whatnot. But awesome? I don't know. They kind of died off. Like, all of them, not just some of the species. And if they did still live, we probably wouldn't have survived, and we definitely wouldn't have all of this technology because we'd spend our resources on trying to kill the dinosaurs.
My next post will be way more interesting than either of these because it will contain both awesome and supposed-to-be awesome items, and it'll be like a quiz! But more awesome than sporcle.

Things that are awesome

  • Mean Girls - it never gets old!
  • Neil Patrick Harris
  • Bacon
  • Peppermint and chocolate perfectly combined (like in a Thin Mint or a Peppermint Mocha!)
  • Exclamation points!!
  • Harry Potter
  • Penguins
  • Pokemon Red
  • Lord of the Rings - seriously never gets old unless you watch it five times in a row...it's happened
  • Mulan
  • Striped long sleeve shirts from Old Navy
  • Toe socks
  • Star Wars
  • Newspapers
  • Scarves
  • Monopoly
  • LOST - you can seriously watch them all five times it's not too much
  • Gmail
  • Homestar Runner
  • Vanilla Coke
  • Leaving people videos on Facebook
  • Journals from before you could spell normal words
  • Wikipedia! Hours of entertainment!
  • Night Marisa!!!!!!!!
If anyone wants to know how to make me smile, reference anything from this list. Or just show me a picture of a meerkat. THE END.