why?

I need a new blog because I like starting fresh, like when I pull out a new piece of paper and forget everything else I've ever written and just have to go with whatever my pen spits out. Also, I feel like facebook notes are tacky for this sort of thing.

So now when I look back on this I'll be reminded of why I wanted a new blog, but I won't fully understand it because my mindset will be different. That's ok. I like insisting to myself that I'm the same person all the time, and while it's true to an extent, my memories, thought processes, decisions and interests do change (five years ago I would have included a comma after decisions; now I consciously point out that I exclude it; maybe later I'll make a different decision). I like that. Who wants to be the static character?

One letter short...what does that mean? It comes from the title I came up with for my 2006 NaNoWriMo novel, but it's different. I like the idea of "letters to..." something because it makes me sound important. I also like the idea of "one...short" because it makes me sound flawed. My name is one letter short of what everyone assumes it should be and likewise I'm always going to be incomplete on my own (it's not really a likewise statement but I really like the sentence flow).

I like taking pictures of bugs because I'm scared of them and when I pull out my camera it's like I'm protected by a photographer's shield. I know I'm not invincible but if I document the experience and look at it as just a little insect it makes me feel better. Even if it's just a little ladybug.

I also like playing with foreground/background stuff just because it gives different perspectives. It's ok if it turns out blurry or there's too much flash or it just doesn't work out...I just like trying it. I like to think I'm doing something new and original even though it's been done (better) before.

I really just like taking pictures and then seeing what it means to me. Why did I do this? Why did I create this? I will look at this blog with a similar eye in the future. So. Marisa, I guess this is my space to compose and create and pray and explore. Maybe more later.